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Wanderlust

I just got home from a week’s trip and can’t wait to leave again. My autistic burnout is making it really hard to travel at the moment, especially when it involves driving (like this long trip, driving ~400 miles each way across several mountainous areas), but my love of traveling is deep, an essential part ofContinue reading “Wanderlust”

The way he looks

I renewed my driver’s license. The previous one is from only two years ago but it needed to be changed. The two photos of me side by side show why. A chiseled jaw that takes the soft square of the previous face a step further. A blond mustache that wasn’t visible two years ago. EvenContinue reading “The way he looks”

The important, painful reality of my being ace-aro & autistic

‘[…] Most of us are haunted by the sense there’s something “wrong” or “missing” in our lives — that we’re sacrificing far more of ourselves than other people in order to get by and receiving far less in return.’ [from Chapter 1 of the book Unmasking Autism by Dr. Devon Price] Although seemingly “superficial” andContinue reading “The important, painful reality of my being ace-aro & autistic”

Two reasons that are hard to let go of

With all the genuine attention and affectionate gestures/behaviors I’m getting from several people in the gay men’s chorus, including even physical affection when I open/loosen up, why did I get so hung up on that one guy with whom I hooked up? After all, he’s not the only one who’s shown me interest, he’s notContinue reading “Two reasons that are hard to let go of”

Sending people (or money) to Mars instead of school

The current government is cutting funding for schools and a host of national research centers, labs, organizations while trying to get to Mars. How could it be more perverted? How can people be blind to the damage this government is doing to this country (& the world) for decades to come??? “ ✏️ Elon MuskContinue reading “Sending people (or money) to Mars instead of school”

Sweet belonging: a beginning?

A 72% dark chocolate-raspberry bar and a small white envelope with my name on it. Inside, a pretty card with three dangling light-bulbs: “It means so much to have someone here who understands being different in a lot of non-visible ways and also is just so genuinely kind. Here’s to as many cycles as weContinue reading “Sweet belonging: a beginning?”

Foreign languages and unknown codes

This morning my housemate asked me how tech rehearsal with the chorus went last night and suddenly I found myself in an almost-flow-of-consciousness explanation of the type of overload, or overhead, I feel at rehearsals with the gay men’s chorus in general. Even when the rehearsals go well or are fun from the musical viewpoint,Continue reading “Foreign languages and unknown codes”

Rephrasing, Reframing, Reclaiming

Maybe I’ve been acting a bit too much the victim in the situation with the gender-expansive gay guy with whom I hooked up. After all, if I led most of the thing and/or took the initiative most of the time, it’s because I wanted to, because I chose to. I started it, I kept itContinue reading “Rephrasing, Reframing, Reclaiming”

“Unmasking Autism”

This afternoon, I finally bought myself a copy of the book Unmasking Autism by Dr. Devon Price. I had borrowed this book from the local library twice already but both times had to return it before even starting to read it. Somehow, I wasn’t ready for it. At this point, I’ve been writing about myContinue reading ““Unmasking Autism””