Author Archives: adventurerliberated

Explorations, revelations, validations

Last night I went out dancing with two guys from the chorus who are also newbies: with one of them I connected over the Pride weekend; with the other I had had a few conversations when he had just joined the chorus (3 months after I did) and I had made a point of welcomingContinue reading “Explorations, revelations, validations”

Fundamentally at odds with these people?

Am I going insane or are other people blind?  There’s a passage in the book Unmasking Autism by Dr. Devon Price that mentions how autistic people, while often not picking up on neurotypical “social queues”, are actually much more perceptive and better at “reading the room” that neurotypical people. Is that what’s going on forContinue reading “Fundamentally at odds with these people?”

Living in my mind — Living in my body

For most of my life, at least since middle school, I lived in my head, almost exclusively with my mind. Being trans, although I didn’t have the words for it, I suffered from (gender) dysphoria and so the more my body turned into a “female body”, the more I fought it, hid it, or ignoredContinue reading “Living in my mind — Living in my body”

Something died within me: nothing to look forward to

[Trigger warnings: death, loss, grief; depression.] I spend a lot of time in my head: rumination, dreams, memories. The present is bleak, the future a black hole with nothing to look forward to.  Five years ago, with the COVID pandemic, something broke for me. Something broke me — the long illness, the complete isolation, theContinue reading “Something died within me: nothing to look forward to”

The actions of a dictator(ship)

– Legislators and politicians from the opposition being arrested, handcuffed, removed from office, killed – Martial law being enacted  – The military sent in against civilians to quench protests – “Uncomfortable” books been banned and censored – “Threatening” theories and historical viewpoints (e.g. Critical Theory) being banned from schools – Academics being fired for voicingContinue reading “The actions of a dictator(ship)”

Crumbs

One of the reasons I left California and moved to Colorado in January of 2022 was because I was so lonely in California, having been unable during the six years I lived there to make friends locally in a way that fulfilled my relational needs.  I chose Colorado because, among other things, I found itContinue reading “Crumbs”