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Depression — The horrific state of the world

I’m gong through a bout of depression. It’s circumstantial but it’s real. The horrific bill that was passed in the House last week was probably the last straw, maybe because it’s one of the most all-encompassing measures of disaster and discrimination and abomination, such a widespread, all-encompassing measure of hatred and evil. I’m worried. I’mContinue reading “Depression — The horrific state of the world”

Loneliness and fatigue

For the past couple weeks, I’ve been struggling with bouts of extreme fatigue and loneliness, and the past week it’s gotten worse. They seem to go hand in hand, these two feelings. Although one is physical (the extreme fatigue, including dizziness, sometimes even when I’m sitting or lying) and one is emotional (the loneliness), theyContinue reading “Loneliness and fatigue”

A mistake but not necessarily wrong

“ Lomeli said in a low voice, “Did I do the right thing, Vincent? What is your opinion?” “No one who follows their conscience ever does wrong, Your Eminence. The consequences may not turn out as we intend; it may prove in time that we made a mistake. But that is not the same asContinue reading “A mistake but not necessarily wrong”

My people — Queering relationships

Four guys in a picture. Four smiling young men. The fifth is the one with the good camera and photographer skills, taking the picture. One is Russian of Ukrainian ethnicity; one is French with a German surname; one is part Italian, part American, part English, part German. They’re different heights, different builds; they have differentContinue reading “My people — Queering relationships”

The big horrific bill

Reposting a message from One Colorado: “While most of us were sleeping, Colorado’s Republican Representatives voted for the U.S. House budget bill that proposes to slash over $700 billion from healthcare and Medicaid, harming hundreds of thousands of Coloradans to help subsidize tax breaks for the wealthy and big corporations. While this bill is beingContinue reading “The big horrific bill”

Trust: the most fundamental form of love

We were swinging freely almost twenty meters above the ground. The 9-mm climbing rope went through the two rappel rings at the top, 100 feet up from the ground, a “free-hanging rappel”, i.e. a lowering technique where there are no walls around or adjacent to you: you’re lowering from what is basically a hole inContinue reading “Trust: the most fundamental form of love”

Friendship: “Highway Queen”

This is how I feel about, or one way I would describe, true friendship: “ Well, there’s only a few pines left by the highway side And they all whistle as the wind rips straight through your pride Baby, it’s only your eyes and mine And this darkness that grows in time Oh, ‘cause youContinue reading “Friendship: “Highway Queen””

Wonderful validations & liberating clarifications

Last night, I went to the birthday celebration of one of the more outgoing & friendly people in the gay men’s chorus, joining folks at a queer club. Overall, I really had fun and the night felt affirming and liberating in several ways that are still making me glow now. Fortunately, my closest nonbinary transmascContinue reading “Wonderful validations & liberating clarifications”

A week of strengthening & broadening bonds

This week I’ve been able to see close friends every single day since getting home from Chicago on Monday. That in and as of itself has been lovely; but what has made it even lovelier has been a strengthening or broadening of the bonds with them. The Chicago trip, just as the Durango trip aContinue reading “A week of strengthening & broadening bonds”