Last night, I went to the birthday celebration of one of the more outgoing & friendly people in the gay men’s chorus, joining folks at a queer club. Overall, I really had fun and the night felt affirming and liberating in several ways that are still making me glow now. Fortunately, my closest nonbinary transmascContinue reading “Wonderful validations & liberating clarifications”
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The important, painful reality of my being ace-aro & autistic
‘[…] Most of us are haunted by the sense there’s something “wrong” or “missing” in our lives — that we’re sacrificing far more of ourselves than other people in order to get by and receiving far less in return.’ [from Chapter 1 of the book Unmasking Autism by Dr. Devon Price] Although seemingly “superficial” andContinue reading “The important, painful reality of my being ace-aro & autistic”
Sweet belonging: a beginning?
A 72% dark chocolate-raspberry bar and a small white envelope with my name on it. Inside, a pretty card with three dangling light-bulbs: “It means so much to have someone here who understands being different in a lot of non-visible ways and also is just so genuinely kind. Here’s to as many cycles as weContinue reading “Sweet belonging: a beginning?”
Heaviness
I’m feeling sad. It’s a heavy sadness, a dark heaviness that has been weighing on me since Sunday. I’m feeling sad and exhausted, and almost everything in my life now feels heavy and joyless. On Sunday, I had signed up to race in a local 10k run that has had a nonbinary category for aContinue reading “Heaviness”
“Black rights are queer rights & queer rights are Black rights”
Some valuable excerpts from the article “Civil rights leader David Johns is fighting to reclaim the future for Black & queer America” in LGBTQ Nation: “ “People forget that democracies have to be defended by each generation and that education is its midwife.” … “Culture wars are manufactured to drive wedges” within coalitions working towardContinue reading ““Black rights are queer rights & queer rights are Black rights””
A new kind of “boys night out”
Last night I went to the movie theatre (for the first time since COVID!) with one of my fellow baritone singers from the gay men’s chorus and his partner (both cis-men) and a cis-woman friend of theirs. After initial introductions and small talk, we went to get drinks & food for the show and whileContinue reading “A new kind of “boys night out””
Standing on the threshold: the day before
Another sleepless night, tossing and turning in bed. Restless and sleepless despite my physical tiredness. It’s my emotions. So similar to the couple of days prior to my gender-affirming top-surgery in January 2023 and so similar to the last couple of days in Spain before moving to California in January 2016. The main feeling IContinue reading “Standing on the threshold: the day before”
FOMO
I’ve been wiped out by fatigue since Tuesday and yesterday I woke up with a sore throat and I still feel tired and with cold symptoms. Apparently, I have nothing “serious”: the swab/PCR tests for COVID, STREP, RSV, and flu all came back negative, so that’s good news. But I’m probably fighting something and definitelyContinue reading “FOMO”
Trans Day Of Remembrance 2024
This is my third Trans Day Of Remembrance in Colorado. And probably the one I’m feeling, and celebrating, the most — at least, until now. The first one, in 2022, I was sick/recovering from COVID. Last year, TDOR 2023 almost passed unnoticed for me because I was so swamped with work. This year, I’m fullyContinue reading “Trans Day Of Remembrance 2024”
For lack of a penis?
[Trigger warnings: misgendering, potential transphobia; nude modeling; references to naked body parts, incl. genitals.] In my nude modeling session yesterday I was heavily misgendered by the instructor (a woman in, I’m guessing, her mid-forties). And it was one of the most upsetting experiences I’ve had. We started out with a standard set of gestures andContinue reading “For lack of a penis?”
The Little Prince and the Fox 