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A new kind of “boys night out”

Last night I went to the movie theatre (for the first time since COVID!) with one of my fellow baritone singers from the gay men’s chorus and his partner (both cis-men) and a cis-woman friend of theirs. After initial introductions and small talk, we went to get drinks & food for the show and whileContinue reading “A new kind of “boys night out””

Standing on the threshold: the day before

Another sleepless night, tossing and turning in bed. Restless and sleepless despite my physical tiredness. It’s my emotions. So similar to the couple of days prior to my gender-affirming top-surgery in January 2023 and so similar to the last couple of days in Spain before moving to California in January 2016. The main feeling IContinue reading “Standing on the threshold: the day before”

FOMO

I’ve been wiped out by fatigue since Tuesday and yesterday I woke up with a sore throat and I still feel tired and with cold symptoms. Apparently, I have nothing “serious”: the swab/PCR tests for COVID, STREP, RSV, and flu all came back negative, so that’s good news. But I’m probably fighting something and definitelyContinue reading “FOMO”

Trans Day Of Remembrance 2024

This is my third Trans Day Of Remembrance in Colorado. And probably the one I’m feeling, and celebrating, the most — at least, until now. The first one, in 2022, I was sick/recovering from COVID. Last year, TDOR 2023 almost passed unnoticed for me because I was so swamped with work. This year, I’m fullyContinue reading “Trans Day Of Remembrance 2024”

For lack of a penis?

[Trigger warnings: misgendering, potential transphobia; nude modeling; references to naked body parts, incl. genitals.] In my nude modeling session yesterday I was heavily misgendered by the instructor (a woman in, I’m guessing, her mid-forties). And it was one of the most upsetting experiences I’ve had. We started out with a standard set of gestures andContinue reading “For lack of a penis?”

Turning the sieve into a bucket?

Last night I had the first full, regular rehearsal with the gay men’s chorus again after the retreat two weeks ago. And it was lovely. Having reached out to a few trusted members before the retreat and then going to the retreat itself have really helped me feel more comfortable with myself within this choir. Continue reading “Turning the sieve into a bucket?”

Existence is resistance

I am queer. I am a transgender person. I’m nonbinary transmasculine. I’m gay but also asexual and aromantic. I’m polyamorous and believe in consensual non-monogamy as well as in a universally expansive definition or application of the term “marriage” as a union that can be formed/undertaken between two or more adult persons who care forContinue reading “Existence is resistance”