A week ago, I was sick, coming down with a bad cold just a few days before my planned “grand finale” race for the year: my first longer-than-half-marathon trail run in Southern California on December 6th. All of last week, amidst extremely dark bouts of depression, was spent with the sole focus of getting overContinue reading “What next?”
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Born again
Yesterday, as I was chatting on the phone with one of my best friends from grad school, I noticed the Priority Mail envelope outside my front door, the envelope that I had anxiously been awaiting for a few days. Excited, I interrupted my friend mid-sentence, opened the door, grabbed the envelope and ripped it open:Continue reading “Born again”
The “nice guys” in my life
“Happy birthday, man”. “Happy birthday, dude”. “Happy birthday, brother”. It’s a series of big tight “guy hugs” from some of my new cis-het buddies as I celebrate my birthday over beers with the co-ed climbing team after our weekly training. When I joined this climbing team about a month ago, I did so “stealth” andContinue reading “The “nice guys” in my life”
TDOR 2025
[Trigger warnings: transphobia; physical/psychological/emotional violence; death.] Today is Trans Days Of Remembrance. This year, given the actual war that the fascist Trump administration is leading against our community, it is a sadder and more important day than ever to remember. I’m one of the lucky ones — at least, for now. I live in aContinue reading “TDOR 2025”
Conversion therapies of all types must end once and for all
[Note: in addition to gays/lesbians, conversion therapy has also been forced on autistic children/youth in the form of “Applied Behavioral Analysis” therapy, a.k.a. ABA.] Re-blogging an excerpt from one of the LGBTQIA+ organizations here in Colorado: “This administration is continuing to use harmful rhetoric to stoke fear, chaos, and division within our communities. The recentContinue reading “Conversion therapies of all types must end once and for all”
United under the Rainbow
This is my first time flying with my new Colorado DL/REAL ID, going through TSA with an ‘M’ (instead of ‘X’ or, previously, ‘F’) on my ID. And it’s been wonderful for now. Not because of the ‘M’ — after all, I’ve been “sir’ed” and “man’ed” when traveling through airports for at least a coupleContinue reading “United under the Rainbow”
The important, painful reality of my being ace-aro & autistic
‘[…] Most of us are haunted by the sense there’s something “wrong” or “missing” in our lives — that we’re sacrificing far more of ourselves than other people in order to get by and receiving far less in return.’ [from Chapter 1 of the book Unmasking Autism by Dr. Devon Price] Although seemingly “superficial” andContinue reading “The important, painful reality of my being ace-aro & autistic”
I don’t see her anymore
Last night, I saw my bare-chested reflection in the mirror and a thought shot through my head, of its own accord or as if it were someone else’s comment: “That’s a man”. In reality, it was more a feeling than words. But then explicit words out loud followed immediately: “I don’t see her anymore”. BeforeContinue reading “I don’t see her anymore”
I wish I weren’t trans
Baby blue, pink, and white. I wish I could fit in a box. I wish I could shower safely at the gym. I wish there were a changing room for me at the rec center. I wish I could compete fairly, as myself, as an athlete. I wish I could travel safely. I wish myContinue reading “I wish I weren’t trans”
Feb. 6th, 2025: News Dump
[Trigger warning: massive transphobia] Sorry that I haven’t gone through this in more detail or sorted it better, but this needs to be put out there. Please just pick one and read. I’m going to put the “good news” first because I think we need it more than ever now. Trans Formations Project Weekly LegislativeContinue reading “Feb. 6th, 2025: News Dump”
The Little Prince and the Fox 