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Big Day

Today’s a big day. I’m going into the city to go to the office where I can initiate the sex-change paperwork for my European IDs. And then I’m going to meet the gender-expansive gay guy for “shared closure of our ‘winter fling’ / ‘attempted friendship with benefits’”. One big beginning and one final ending today. Continue reading “Big Day”

“Feel it and be free”

“Feel it. The thing that you don’t want to feel. Feel it. And be free.” [Nayyirah Waheed]

Our democracy is at risk and cannot be taken for granted

Plenty of other signs should have been telling us already for a while that with Donald Trump and his fascist, phobic oligarchy our democracy is seriously and realistically at risk. But if those weren’t clear enough, then the startling admission from GOP Senator Lisa Murkowski, “We are all afraid”, should really raise the alarm. “Continue reading “Our democracy is at risk and cannot be taken for granted”

Travel solo to explore or escape?

[Content warnings: loneliness, sorrow, loss, breakups, death of parent.] Traveling has always been part of my life: it was something we did with my family of origin; then, I also started doing it with the families of my best friends and, eventually, just me and my friends. Technically, the first time I traveled by myselfContinue reading “Travel solo to explore or escape?”

Wanderlust

I just got home from a week’s trip and can’t wait to leave again. My autistic burnout is making it really hard to travel at the moment, especially when it involves driving (like this long trip, driving ~400 miles each way across several mountainous areas), but my love of traveling is deep, an essential part ofContinue reading “Wanderlust”

The way he looks

I renewed my driver’s license. The previous one is from only two years ago but it needed to be changed. The two photos of me side by side show why. A chiseled jaw that takes the soft square of the previous face a step further. A blond mustache that wasn’t visible two years ago. EvenContinue reading “The way he looks”

The important, painful reality of my being ace-aro & autistic

‘[…] Most of us are haunted by the sense there’s something “wrong” or “missing” in our lives — that we’re sacrificing far more of ourselves than other people in order to get by and receiving far less in return.’ [from Chapter 1 of the book Unmasking Autism by Dr. Devon Price] Although seemingly “superficial” andContinue reading “The important, painful reality of my being ace-aro & autistic”

Two reasons that are hard to let go of

With all the genuine attention and affectionate gestures/behaviors I’m getting from several people in the gay men’s chorus, including even physical affection when I open/loosen up, why did I get so hung up on that one guy with whom I hooked up? After all, he’s not the only one who’s shown me interest, he’s notContinue reading “Two reasons that are hard to let go of”