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I’m sitting blissfully listening to Chopin’s Nocturnes….  I have a cold. So I spent the afternoon resting and finally went back to doing something that I used to enjoy but hadn’t done in several years: knit and listen to classical music, relaxing. Bliss.  This music is just so so beautiful… Thank you, Mum, for teachingContinue reading “Bliss”

Yesterday was quite a perfect Saturday and the type of Saturday night I’d like to have with a primary romantic partner, if I had one.  There was the right amount or balance (for me) of independent activities and togetherness.  At lunch time, I went for a long trail run on my own and then madeContinue reading “Lovely Saturday”

Today I had an interesting experience: I went to the gynecologist for the first time since coming out as non-binary.  I’ve never had a problem about going to the gynecologist. It never felt uncomfortable or embarrassing. It was just a matter-of-fact thing that needed to be done, just like the yearly physical exam and teethContinue reading “Sex & Gender”

Today, I’m sad. Extremely sad.  Because I care too much. Which maybe is just a nicer way of saying that I have attachment issues.  For the moment, let’s just leave it at that.  All I want to add today is — thank goodness I decided to never have biological children of my own: it wouldContinue reading “Sadness”

I’ve found another piece of myself, once again, and it feels so wonderful! I’m reeling from joy! One of the pieces of my pre-pandemic identity used to be “the motorcycle rider”, which is also one of the parts that I identify as my masculine, boyish, wild and playful parts that I love so much andContinue reading “Another piece of me is back!”

I cannot believe that this legal right is still being threatened! https://www.npr.org/2021/11/29/1056129045/as-the-supreme-court-considers-roe-v-wade-a-look-at-how-abortion-became-legal https://www.npr.org/2021/11/29/1059861841/former-governor-who-signed-mississippi-abortion-law-weighs-in-on-supreme-court-f I recognize that this is such a triggering topic for me, something that I feel so close at heart, that I probably cannot write about it in a wholly balanced way. So I won’t write much.  I do believe it appalling, though,Continue reading ““Keep abortion legal!””

For you I’ll be left-handed For you I’ll watch the streams flow upwards For you I’ll run in the ocean  and swim on mountain trails For you I’ll see the stars  in the bright sunny daylight But will you see, my love,  This boy that is me?

[Spoiler alert: some details about the movie “Call me by your name”] Recently, I saw the movie “Call me by your name”, from the homonymous novel: a beautiful delicate, intense, and bittersweet love story between a 17-year-old boy, Elio, and his father’s 24-year-old assistant, Oliver, visiting as an intern for six weeks during the summerContinue reading ““Call me by your name””

Growing up in a mixed-culture household in Europe, Thanksgiving was always a special, cozy celebration for me as it kept the connection to half of my family with a warmth that was important to me.  The special meaning of Thanksgiving has remained with me even as an adult, and I especially like to remember andContinue reading “Thanksgiving — Giving Thanks”

Today is a “to-do-list day”.  Not nearly as bad as it would have been a month or two ago. I’m actually feeling really well but I also realize that rumination always lurks at the back of my mind in this period and threatens my well-being like an ambiguous dark shadow.  The past couple weeks haveContinue reading