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… and here’s another one today…

“… that’s what grief is — a yearning for that one last moment of contact that would settle everything.” [‘Wintering’ by Katherine May] It’s snowing again. After a week of sunshine and progressively warm weather, this soft white blanket falling over the world feels nice, soothing, and especially gentle — something I really need todayContinue reading “Breakthrough after breakfast”

I’m still on my runner’s high from this morning: it was my best trail run, yet (in wintertime here)!  Dinner with my host family, some good sleep, and an early energetic morning, helped dispel yesterday’s sadness — and an emotional breakthrough after breakfast clarified it. [I’ll write more about this when I’m ready to doContinue reading “Runner’s High”

I’m feeling terribly sad.  I’ve been feeling sad in a sort of cosmic, unfathomable, maybe existential way for the past few days. And also afraid. But mostly sad.  Last night, as I watched the end of the movie “Don’t look up” with my host family, tears streamed uncontrollably down my cheeks, and it felt likeContinue reading “Sadness”

If I had to make my decision now, I would stay here. In Colorado.  I just had a conversation with my host family confirming that I can stay here until the end of May and even into June, if necessary. That means just four months here… And it feels like too little in this moment.Continue reading “Colorado vs. California”

Wednesday evening and yesterday morning I shoveled piles of snow: five inches of snow had accumulated from the snow storm on Tuesday and Wednesday, and I needed to clear the back driveway to get my car out of the garage and drive to the airport. The back driveway is about 25 square meters (~270 squareContinue reading “Shoveling snow”

My emotions are all over the place. After the snow storm on Tuesday & Wednesday, today I experienced a storm of emotions. I spent my first week here in Colorado alone in my host family’s huge house while they were still away —house-sitting for them and totally enjoying the solitude. I hadn’t felt so happyContinue reading “Storm of Emotions”

It’s been snowing non-stop for over twelve hours, everything is covered in a thick, soft white mantel, temperatures dropped almost 20 degrees (Fahrenheit) overnight.  It’s beautiful.  It’s also a little concerning for me from the practical viewpoint since tomorrow I have to drive to the airport to pick up my “host mom”, but that worryContinue reading “Winter therapy”

Today, I walked into my new climbing gym here in Colorado and I was seen. I mean my bodily presence was registered immediately and throughout the whole hour that I was there bouldering.  It wasn’t just the “new face in town” type of thing. There probably was some of that, but it was also —Continue reading “I am “some-body”!”

[Disclaimer: this post is going to be quite self-celebratory because I am not only very happy but also extremely proud of what I’ve just done.] I made it!  Yesterday I made it to my new (albeit temporary) home in Colorado and now I’m sipping tea in the living-room watching thick, soft snow fall outside theContinue reading “I made it!”