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I guess I’m an optimist who cannot avoid seeing — or trying to find — the silver lining in everything…  The silver lining of the abusive situation with my former housemate/landlady escalating and exploding three weeks ago is that it led to a much deeper connection with people within my choir/queer community in a wayContinue reading “A deeper sense of belonging”

“…  If you want to see the world, you have to say goodbye Cause a map does no good hanging on a wall If you want to see the world, you have to say goodbye Cause a map does no good hanging on a wall ” [from the song “Map on a wall” by LucyContinue reading ““Map on a wall””

A week later, I’ve changed, and let go of, another California plate: the one on my motorcycle. Now, my motorcycle proudly exhibits the temporary version of its new, Colorado, plate.  I’m realizing that part of the reason — and possibly the major part of the reason — why I sometimes still miss certain aspects andContinue reading “Pieces of settling in to Colorado…”

I feel the need to write, to desperately write, letting it all out in some creative way. Or draw, do a big, a huge painting, to draw out my feelings.  I wish I were more of an artist, a better artist. I wish I could let things out in a creative way that could beContinue reading “Letting go of another little piece of California”

This past week I attended several events for the Transgender Awareness Week, including two festive events this weekend.  Last year, only two months after my move from California to Colorado, I attended some similar events for the Transgender Awareness Week.  A year later now, in many ways I’ve come so far… Even just from theContinue reading “What am I?”

Today, exactly two months and one day after my masculinizing mastectomy, I finally went back to the swimming pool and trained bare-chested, wearing a man’s Speedo for the first time in my adult life!  It felt great!  It also felt weird — it’s still so unfamiliar to me… And I still feel vulnerable and exposed,Continue reading “The boy’s first swim!”

I’m very tired. Fortunately, a relaxed type of tired now, but tired nonetheless. The past two or three days have been particularly intense.  For the first time in months, I am feeling really comfortable and safe and at home in the place where I am staying.  After the climax of domestic abuse from my housemateContinue reading “Reveling in my “bro time””

I want to state this for the record.  Two days ago, on Thursday, for the first (& hopefully last) time in my life I called the “domestic violence/abuse hotline”.  After months of verbal, emotional, and psychological abuse, on Thursday morning my housemate actually became physically threatening and her transphobia mixed with general disrespect towards meContinue reading “Domestic abuse”

[Spoiler alert: details, including the ending, of the film “The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Pie Society” are mentioned quite explicitly.] In the past week, I have been binge-watching the film “The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Pie Society”.  I sometimes do this, with songs as well as with movies: I go through phases ofContinue reading ““The Guernsey Literary & Potato Peel Pie Society””