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I want to state this for the record.  Two days ago, on Thursday, for the first (& hopefully last) time in my life I called the “domestic violence/abuse hotline”.  After months of verbal, emotional, and psychological abuse, on Thursday morning my housemate actually became physically threatening and her transphobia mixed with general disrespect towards meContinue reading “Domestic abuse”

[Spoiler alert: details, including the ending, of the film “The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Pie Society” are mentioned quite explicitly.] In the past week, I have been binge-watching the film “The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Pie Society”.  I sometimes do this, with songs as well as with movies: I go through phases ofContinue reading ““The Guernsey Literary & Potato Peel Pie Society””

Yesterday, I had one of the loveliest and most wonderful celebratory moments of my life. At the crag. A dream of decades come true: I climbed totally bare-chested amidst several other people, without hiding anything. And I didn’t do it discretely: I did it loud and proud — heck, yeah!  After eight weeks of noContinue reading “Striptease of liberation at the crag!”

Two news clips from last night that I found really troubling, upsetting, concerning, and even quite infuriating:  https://www.npr.org/2023/03/15/1163670457/abortion-pill-kacsmaryk-mifepristone-texas https://www.npr.org/2023/03/15/1163733442/wellesley-students-vote-for-the-school-to-accept-trans-and-nonbinary-applicants

It’s amazing how much the ability to be active in my body again has brought me back to life in the past two days.  I had had glimpses of this wonderful feeling again with the visit of one climbing buddy who took us to explore a National Park three weeks after my surgery and thenContinue reading “Back in my body, Back to life”

It’s hard to put into words the joy I am feeling in this moment. I’m almost besides myself with joy.  The boy is running!  I’m a trans athlete!  The boy is running, I’m a trans athlete, and I’m ready to let the body-hair come!  Today I went for my first post-op run: my first runContinue reading “Let the body-hair come!”

There are several verses of the song “I am woman (hear me roar)” that I relate to deeply, and the title/refrain has often resonated with me, albeit it changing it slightly, sometimes.  Sometimes, due to my upbringing & past experiences, I’ve resonated with the original, “I am woman, Hear me roar”.  At other times, I’veContinue reading ““I am me, Hear me roar!””

[Trigger warning: depression] I’m in a very dark spot again.  This is probably another bout of post-op depression and I’m really struggling.  Physically struggling with exhaustion and these stress headaches I tend to get in my left temple with a searing pain (migraines?).  But especially struggling mentally and emotionally, which is also causing most ofContinue reading “Dark spot”

This afternoon, exactly one month after my gender-affirming top-surgery, I went on my first post-op hike: a real, 4.5-mile hike with almost 500 feet elevation gain (after a 2.5-mile walk).  One of my closest climbing buddies took me on the hike — or, rather, he drove us to the trailhead and I took us onContinue reading “Thank you, buddy!”

Today’s exactly one month since getting my gender-affirming top-surgery.  I don’t regret it. I’ve never felt so well and aligned with/in my own body and this is wonderful.  But today I am feeling sad and afraid.  Sad for all that I’ve had to leave behind me and already lost; afraid of what I still mightContinue reading “One month later: sad and afraid”