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Only one week away!

… And next week I have my first two performances with the gay men’s chorus — the first one being only one week away!!! I’m so excited & happy about it! I’ve finally found my voice, literally, this beautiful trans voice of mine. And I love how it sounds, how it feels — how IContinue reading “Only one week away!”

Trans Day Of Remembrance 2024

This is my third Trans Day Of Remembrance in Colorado. And probably the one I’m feeling, and celebrating, the most — at least, until now. The first one, in 2022, I was sick/recovering from COVID. Last year, TDOR 2023 almost passed unnoticed for me because I was so swamped with work. This year, I’m fullyContinue reading “Trans Day Of Remembrance 2024”

Shifting boundaries and conflicting needs

The night between Sunday & Monday, after rehearsal with the gay men’s chorus, I barely got four hours of sleep. The interactions with the guy on whom I have an intense, albeit aro-ace, crush had thrown me for a loop. Basically, we seemed to intentionally ignore each other during most of the evening both duringContinue reading “Shifting boundaries and conflicting needs”

The gift of friendship

A few days ago, one of my closets friends here in Colorado said to me that I “have a gift for friendship”. That’s one of the highest compliments I could be given, one of the loveliest things I could be told. And I’m not sure I deserve such a compliment. More simply, I would sayContinue reading “The gift of friendship”

Aro-ace crush

I have a crush on one of the guys in the gay men’s chorus. Admittedly, I hardly know this person. But there have been more direct interactions between us than with other choir members and there seems seems to be a mutual liking, although I don’t exactly know of what sort on their part. IContinue reading “Aro-ace crush”

For lack of a penis?

[Trigger warnings: misgendering, potential transphobia; nude modeling; references to naked body parts, incl. genitals.] In my nude modeling session yesterday I was heavily misgendered by the instructor (a woman in, I’m guessing, her mid-forties). And it was one of the most upsetting experiences I’ve had. We started out with a standard set of gestures andContinue reading “For lack of a penis?”

Turning the sieve into a bucket?

Last night I had the first full, regular rehearsal with the gay men’s chorus again after the retreat two weeks ago. And it was lovely. Having reached out to a few trusted members before the retreat and then going to the retreat itself have really helped me feel more comfortable with myself within this choir. Continue reading “Turning the sieve into a bucket?”

I was given a sieve when I needed a bucket

If my right wrist weren’t injured still, I’d be on a birthday climbing trip with my closest buddy. We finalized plans ten days ago and then I finally told him that I wasn’t sure how much, if at all, I could climb because of my wrist injury. It was hard for me to actually sayContinue reading “I was given a sieve when I needed a bucket”

Life & love resist

Winter arrived early this year, cold and hard. But despite the relentless snow terminating many of the gorgeous autumn colors early, some remain: flaming leaves resist the cold and snow, as life and love resist. Love and life resist and will eventually prevail. Because springs always returns, eventually.

Existence is resistance

I am queer. I am a transgender person. I’m nonbinary transmasculine. I’m gay but also asexual and aromantic. I’m polyamorous and believe in consensual non-monogamy as well as in a universally expansive definition or application of the term “marriage” as a union that can be formed/undertaken between two or more adult persons who care forContinue reading “Existence is resistance”