Author Archives: adventurerliberated

Lately I’ve been reading, almost devouring, the book “A man called Ove” by Fredrik Backman.  In the past few days I read a couple passaged that really touched me deeply, that resonated profoundly with some emotions that have been resurfacing more intensely for me recently.  ‘”She’s the only teacher I ever had who didn’t thinkContinue reading “From “A man called Ove””

I guess I can be proud of myself: despite one partial and one nearly total meltdown, I managed to get myself safely to my friend’s house and then all the way back home riding my motorcycle for half an hour each way on the freeway.  It started as a hard day already this morning. IContinue reading “Controlled meltdowns”

This evening I watered the garden of my owners’ house again: this is the big responsibility I have here while they’re away this summer.  I’ve never been very good at taking care of plants but I’m really loving tending to their garden. I love the smells that come up and out of the soil, outContinue reading “Watering the garden”

I’ve always liked activities that entail speed and/or danger or risk.  Only recently, though, have I realized how much the fact of being able, or not, to do risky things is a very accurate thermometer of my mental state, even of my mental health.  In June I was still too tired and mentally fatigued toContinue reading “Mental health thermometer”

“You can close your eyes  to what you do not want to see But you cannot close your heart  to what you do not want to feel”

Is it going to be sufficient for me to focus fiercely on my new job and stay in the realm of the “safe spaces” of platonic/buddy-like relationships, or is it time for another round of psychotherapy? Any maybe aimed specifically at my inability around romantic/intimate relationships? And in particular with someone who has specific knowledgeContinue reading ““Gutta cavat lapidem””

A dear friend of mine recently commented, when I was telling her about some of my recent crushes, “You have a type”; and then, a short while later, “It’s another one of these available-unavailable guys”… And to a great extent she was right. Saying that I “have a type” I fall for is quite accurateContinue reading “Misplaced, or misleading, longing”

I have the date for my masculinizing top-surgery: January 26th, 2023! I was hoping it could be sooner, a month or two earlier, but on the other hand I quite like the symbolism of this particular date: in fact, I arrived in Colorado last January 26th, 2022. So somehow next January 26th feels like aContinue reading “I have a date…!”

In the past six months here in Colorado, I have instinctively gravitated towards two communities: rock climbers, on one hand, and non-binary/trans persons, on the other. Moreover, I have in particular been connecting with cisgender male climbers, who are often in a steady, monogamous romantic relationship, on one hand, and AFAB non-binary/trans-masculine persons who areContinue reading “Safe spaces”