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Throughout most of my life one of my strongest desires has been to have “adventure buddies”, usually with male friends. And indeed, most of my deepest relationships — some of them still lasting now after decades, others lasting only for brief but nonetheless fun and intense moments — have been with “adventure buddies”: situations inContinue reading “Adventure buddies”

This morning, I woke up with the refrain (both the lyrics and the tune) “I walk alone” from Green Day’s song “Boulevard of broken dreams” ringing in my head.  I’ve noticed this happening quite often: I wake up with a particular song or refrain playing in my head, even when maybe I haven’t heard thatContinue reading “I walk alone”

Where I grew up there’s a dialect word to indicate a crab when it’s molting: “moeca”. This could be translated into English as “softy”: indeed, crabs in this state are soft and vulnerable (and often illegally fished since they seem to be quite a delicacy).  Well, I feel like a “moeca” in this moment: softContinue reading “Molting”

My sister just texted me to let me know that she got her first Pfizer shot today. I felt the same sense of joy and relief as a couple weeks ago when my mother told me that she & my father had just got their first Moderna vaccine.  My nuclear family of origin lives inContinue reading “Loving from afar”

Springtime in my heart again…

One of my best friends here has two daughters: one of them just turned 10 and the other is 8 and a half. The 10-year-old has recently started running on a girls’ team and the younger one has just started playing soccer.  A few nights ago, I was having dinner with them and the olderContinue reading

This morning, I’m not so sure how I am feeling. It’s a mixture of feelings, somehow intense yet sweet and soft, powerful and yet not overwhelming. Usually, I feel one or two emotions or states of mind very clearly, often even very intensely, like an intense and colorful stroke of oil paint on a whiteContinue reading “Morning palette”

This might be my “mid-life crisis” coming out in bursts as my 40th birthday slowly approaches on the horizon (November 2021), although I don’t really care about age… Or it might be the result of a year of more introspective reflections than usual or too much isolation… Or symptoms of a ”Peter Pan syndrome” thatContinue reading “What is wrong with me?”