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Today I’m feeling tired and hopeless.  The only thing I’d like to do now is be out in the mountains on a nice long hike or trail run. But I cannot do it, nothing even close to it, because I have so much prep work for my classes tomorrow.  Hopefully a “to-do” list will getContinue reading “Burnout?”

You know those moment when the Universe seems to be pointing clearly in one direction for you?  Well, I feel like that might be happening to me now.  I’m an atheist, or maybe a “spiritual or naturalistic or universal atheist”. Anyway, I certainly don’t believe in any God or destiny. But sometimes it feels likeContinue reading “Leap of faith or crazy jump off a cliff?”

https://www.npr.org/2021/10/23/1048723012/life-kit-how-to-better-manage-your-time In this report on NPR about “time management”, it was also being suggested that when making our decisions on what to “fail at”, it would be better to not always or necessarily choose to do what makes us happy in the present moment but rather what allows us to grow.  I think this couldContinue reading ““Four Thousand Weeks: Time Management For Mortals” — afterthought”

My 5-mile run yesterday evening was a struggle: I felt exhausted, physically tired, with low energy and short/shallow breathing, and mentally fatigued. I was really frustrated by the shortness of my breath — which is still unclear whether it’s an effect of my having been sick with COVID in March 2020 and/or due to anxietyContinue reading “Hop back”

Last night I happened to listen to this report on NPR about “time management” with tips that are quite different from the usual ones of “task optimization”:  https://www.npr.org/2021/10/23/1048723012/life-kit-how-to-better-manage-your-time It’s basically suggesting we admit our human limits, our mortality, the fact that time isn’t infinite and that we cannot do everything, so they suggest choosing whatContinue reading ““Four Thousand Weeks: Time Management For Mortals””

In the past months, since this spring, a sentence that has often rung in my ears or run through my head, and that I’ve felt very deeply, has been “This boy in me”.  Lately, this has become, “This boy that is me”, as in “This boy that I am”.  This boy that has waited years,Continue reading “This boy that is me”

Yesterday I had a meltdown. It came at the end of three sleepless nights, at the end of my workweek with all its accumulated stress (mostly emotional), after three particularly tough weeks.  The specific trigger (but not the real cause) of yesterday’s meltdown was the fact that my friend where I was supposed to stayContinue reading “Meltdown”

Was is it that always makes me feel so giddy after going out with this non-binary climber that I like? Is it just that I like them so much? And/or that they’re the first non-binary person that I’ve ever liked so much?  Or is it that in some ways they — and the interactions withContinue reading “Once bitten, twice shy?”

I’m really upset (and have been for a while now).  I’m angry. And sad. And also feeling lost.  My job doesn’t pay the bills. Nothing much new about this, I guess — unfortunately, there’s plenty of people in the world who would say the same (and many more who are in truly dire conditions).  ButContinue reading “At a loss”

“…  I walk with angels that have no place  …  I walk  Streets of fire  Streets of fire  Streets of fire  Streets of fire”  [Bruce Springsteen, “Streets of fire” (a little edited)] “…  Baby if you want to be wild  You’ve got a lot to learn  …  ”  [Bruce Springsteen, “Candy’s room”] I feel thatContinue reading