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For the past couple weeks, there’s been an underlying profound sadness in me. Other feelings and emotions have been able to come through as well but the sadness has been there consistently in these weeks and sometimes has been particularly intense, sharp.  Sadness and some fear.  I know very well, see and feel very clearly,Continue reading “Inner compass”

How can humans produce such perfect beauty, like Chopin’s Nocturnes or Einstein’s Theory of General Relativity, and yet also cause such horrors as wars, destruction, climate change?  We are effectively destroying this planet.  Two years into this Covid pandemic… What if this virus is Nature’s way of ridding itself from humankind to thus try andContinue reading “Nagging question”

One cannot overestimate the importance of affirmation.  This morning, I had a brief, intake phone-call with a counselor from my medical insurance company to help with “stress management” and it went so much better than I would have expected. It was only 20-minutes long and mostly about getting to know my situation, so I explainedContinue reading “From rainclouds to sunshine”

I’m sitting blissfully listening to Chopin’s Nocturnes….  I have a cold. So I spent the afternoon resting and finally went back to doing something that I used to enjoy but hadn’t done in several years: knit and listen to classical music, relaxing. Bliss.  This music is just so so beautiful… Thank you, Mum, for teachingContinue reading “Bliss”

Yesterday was quite a perfect Saturday and the type of Saturday night I’d like to have with a primary romantic partner, if I had one.  There was the right amount or balance (for me) of independent activities and togetherness.  At lunch time, I went for a long trail run on my own and then madeContinue reading “Lovely Saturday”

Today I had an interesting experience: I went to the gynecologist for the first time since coming out as non-binary.  I’ve never had a problem about going to the gynecologist. It never felt uncomfortable or embarrassing. It was just a matter-of-fact thing that needed to be done, just like the yearly physical exam and teethContinue reading “Sex & Gender”

Today, I’m sad. Extremely sad.  Because I care too much. Which maybe is just a nicer way of saying that I have attachment issues.  For the moment, let’s just leave it at that.  All I want to add today is — thank goodness I decided to never have biological children of my own: it wouldContinue reading “Sadness”

I’ve found another piece of myself, once again, and it feels so wonderful! I’m reeling from joy! One of the pieces of my pre-pandemic identity used to be “the motorcycle rider”, which is also one of the parts that I identify as my masculine, boyish, wild and playful parts that I love so much andContinue reading “Another piece of me is back!”

I cannot believe that this legal right is still being threatened! https://www.npr.org/2021/11/29/1056129045/as-the-supreme-court-considers-roe-v-wade-a-look-at-how-abortion-became-legal https://www.npr.org/2021/11/29/1059861841/former-governor-who-signed-mississippi-abortion-law-weighs-in-on-supreme-court-f I recognize that this is such a triggering topic for me, something that I feel so close at heart, that I probably cannot write about it in a wholly balanced way. So I won’t write much.  I do believe it appalling, though,Continue reading ““Keep abortion legal!””

For you I’ll be left-handed For you I’ll watch the streams flow upwards For you I’ll run in the ocean  and swim on mountain trails For you I’ll see the stars  in the bright sunny daylight But will you see, my love,  This boy that is me?