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In the past months, since this spring, a sentence that has often rung in my ears or run through my head, and that I’ve felt very deeply, has been “This boy in me”.  Lately, this has become, “This boy that is me”, as in “This boy that I am”.  This boy that has waited years,Continue reading “This boy that is me”

Yesterday I had a meltdown. It came at the end of three sleepless nights, at the end of my workweek with all its accumulated stress (mostly emotional), after three particularly tough weeks.  The specific trigger (but not the real cause) of yesterday’s meltdown was the fact that my friend where I was supposed to stayContinue reading “Meltdown”

Was is it that always makes me feel so giddy after going out with this non-binary climber that I like? Is it just that I like them so much? And/or that they’re the first non-binary person that I’ve ever liked so much?  Or is it that in some ways they — and the interactions withContinue reading “Once bitten, twice shy?”

I’m really upset (and have been for a while now).  I’m angry. And sad. And also feeling lost.  My job doesn’t pay the bills. Nothing much new about this, I guess — unfortunately, there’s plenty of people in the world who would say the same (and many more who are in truly dire conditions).  ButContinue reading “At a loss”

“…  I walk with angels that have no place  …  I walk  Streets of fire  Streets of fire  Streets of fire  Streets of fire”  [Bruce Springsteen, “Streets of fire” (a little edited)] “…  Baby if you want to be wild  You’ve got a lot to learn  …  ”  [Bruce Springsteen, “Candy’s room”] I feel thatContinue reading

“Let everything happen to you: Beauty and terror.  Just keep going.  No feeling is final.”  [Rainer Maria Rilke] To those who might be struggling simply because it’s Monday.  And to those who might be having a particularly hard start of the week or rough day.  And to my friends who are reading me and knowContinue reading ““No feeling is final””

5:00am. Arys’s alarm clock goes off. No option of snoozing it: Arys turns off the alarm and gets up in the dark. They shiver: it’s chilly. They reach for their running shorts, sports bra and technical running hoodie that they had already left ready the night before, to make things quicker on this early SaturdayContinue reading “Another lovely Saturday!”

“Stay grounded, baby, stay grounded”.  I repeat this sentence to myself often lately.  There are days I feel as grounded as an old, wise oak tree — so grounded I’m amazed at myself.  And then there are days when I feel like the tiniest, lightest twig carried all over the place by the scary powerfulContinue reading ““To-do” lists”

One of the aspects I like the most about the yoga class I often attend on Wednesday evening is the teacher’s style: her dry humor, her attention to details, the fact that she gently helps or corrects us in our poses while never losing the capacity to make us smile or laugh even in theContinue reading ““Your presence matters””

… And this weekend, there’s a particular “thank you” that I’d like to say to my artist&swimmer friend.  Thank you for the lovely Saturday afternoon we spent together; for the books you gave me; for listening to me and sharing your own feelings and experiences with me.  And thank you also for naming “it”: PTSD.Continue reading “Lets’ name it: Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder”