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Six months ago one of my closest friends gave me the book “The body keeps the score”, which has been on my reading list for a couple years now. I haven’t gotten around to reading it, yet, but I look forward to it — and maybe then I’ll finally understand why, whenever I experience aContinue reading “How does the body keep the score?”

When I let the deep friendship with my non-binary friend & climbing/adventure buddy acquire a romantic&sexual aspect to it, in April, letting it happen out of spontaneous mutual consent and just the feeling of the moment, without discussing its possible consequences, I made a mistake.  I assumed it would be okay because in the momentContinue reading “I made a(nother) mistake”

For the past day and a half I’ve been feeling extremely sad. The cause lay in a message from a person that I love very deeply.  This message is very thoughtful, mature, respectful and loving. There is no doubt from this message as well as other interactions with this person that they love me deeply,Continue reading “Assumptions: Shields & Daggers”

“Ask, Don’t Assume”: this has become one of my favorite mantras since first seeing this quote at a friend’s house in February.  Over the past five or six years my awareness with respect to assumptions has probably been one of the greatest shifts in my worldview and growth. I have found myself in personal situationsContinue reading ““Ask, Don’t Assume””

“Kiss it” by Dorothy (Album “Rock is dead”): “Mama she don’t like my walk Daddy he don’t like my talk My baby told me “Listen here A woman need a man.” All I gotta say to you is “Kiss it baby, ” yeah Kiss it Kiss it baby yeah, kiss it Kiss it baby yeah,Continue reading ““Kiss it” (song)”

You might feel like you’re on your own now. And you might really be on your own.  Maybe your family’s reaction to your coming out was something like, “Of course, we love you just as you are, but… “  Maybe some close friend turned their back on you for stating your opinion honestly, regardless ofContinue reading “On your own but not alone”

I’m upset. And scared.  I have two close friends who are around the same age, in their early-mid forties, both single mothers of two girls and both have the tendency of getting in relationships with violent (and usually much older) men.  With one of these friends of mine I haven’t been able to talk, notContinue reading “Harassment from violent men”

“Ain’t no angel, oh gonna greet me I’ve been so far gone living in a fever dream I wanna stand on the mountain I wanna know how it feels I wanna see what the world looks like When everybody here can feel just what I say And I’ll do it my own way Yes, IContinue reading “Piercing recognition”

The intake call with the physician’s assistant for top surgery went so well this morning that I was overwhelmed and at a certain point just couldn’t stop the tears rushing out of me during the half-hour phone call.  The realization of this being actually DOABLE, of even having options on the type of surgery orContinue reading “First step towards a boy’s chest, at last”

Today and tomorrow I have some very important things coming up for me, both because of deadlines for my textbook and because of gender-affirming medical appointments: intake call on top surgery today and endocrinologist visit to discuss HRT tomorrow!  But also, or already, yesterday evening something really important happened for me: I came out moreContinue reading “New step in my coming out!”