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You might feel like you’re on your own now. And you might really be on your own.  Maybe your family’s reaction to your coming out was something like, “Of course, we love you just as you are, but… “  Maybe some close friend turned their back on you for stating your opinion honestly, regardless ofContinue reading “On your own but not alone”

I’m upset. And scared.  I have two close friends who are around the same age, in their early-mid forties, both single mothers of two girls and both have the tendency of getting in relationships with violent (and usually much older) men.  With one of these friends of mine I haven’t been able to talk, notContinue reading “Harassment from violent men”

“Ain’t no angel, oh gonna greet me I’ve been so far gone living in a fever dream I wanna stand on the mountain I wanna know how it feels I wanna see what the world looks like When everybody here can feel just what I say And I’ll do it my own way Yes, IContinue reading “Piercing recognition”

The intake call with the physician’s assistant for top surgery went so well this morning that I was overwhelmed and at a certain point just couldn’t stop the tears rushing out of me during the half-hour phone call.  The realization of this being actually DOABLE, of even having options on the type of surgery orContinue reading “First step towards a boy’s chest, at last”

Today and tomorrow I have some very important things coming up for me, both because of deadlines for my textbook and because of gender-affirming medical appointments: intake call on top surgery today and endocrinologist visit to discuss HRT tomorrow!  But also, or already, yesterday evening something really important happened for me: I came out moreContinue reading “New step in my coming out!”

“Give Thanks”, says one of the many framed decorations hanging on the walls of the lovely house that I’ve moved into for the summer.  Yes, I’ll give thanks for all the wonderful blessings I have in this moment.  Although I hardly ever write about world events in this blog and I often shy away fromContinue reading “Giving Thanks”

Yesterday I had a wonderful day, a day full of euphoria, including gender euphoria (which is real, along with gender dysphoria!).  I went climbing outdoors with four guys (i.e. cis-gender males) — two new acquaintances and two of whom I had climbed with once a couple months ago. And spending the day with them broughtContinue reading “Gender euphoria and biological clock”

My sister fell into the water again last night, and I rescued her.  This has been happening very often, almost every night for a while now. Is this why I wake up feeling so exhausted every morning?

I’m feeling so sad and uncomfortable in my own skin today that I’m struggling to work.  Work has often been a lifeline for me. I think one of the many reasons I’ve always been drawn to the hard sciences, especially to maths and physics, since the youngest age, is that it has always felt likeContinue reading “Gender dysphoria kicking in again”