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I’m enjoying the coziness of home during a summer storm. The rain and chilly air are nice. And it’s even nicer to be able to enjoy them from the safety and warmth of a house on a relaxed weekend afternoon.  Although I am giving myself a hard time to relax. In general lately. I’m stillContinue reading “Two quotes for this week”

From the book “A man called Ove”, towards the end:  “Love is a strange thing. It takes you by surprise.” For what it’s worth, I can totally relate to that. 

It’s not just sorrow from a returning wave of grief that I have been feeling in the past week or so. There’s something deeper, older. Something that had started resurfacing this past spring, around March. I only have inklings of what it is but I know it’s really important: I know I’m getting to theContinue reading

I love summer storms. It’s one of the many things I like about Colorado (& missed when living in coastal California): four definite seasons.  Now I’m sitting at home relaxing after a late lunch, having gotten home on my motorcycle, after a slow, powerful swim at the pool, while it was already drizzling but justContinue reading “Zen and the art of motorcycle riding”

Song: “Missile” by Dorothy (album “Rock is dead”) […] […] …  Love is destruction  But this war is mine This war is mine  … 

Lately I’ve been reading, almost devouring, the book “A man called Ove” by Fredrik Backman.  In the past few days I read a couple passaged that really touched me deeply, that resonated profoundly with some emotions that have been resurfacing more intensely for me recently.  ‘”She’s the only teacher I ever had who didn’t thinkContinue reading “From “A man called Ove””

I guess I can be proud of myself: despite one partial and one nearly total meltdown, I managed to get myself safely to my friend’s house and then all the way back home riding my motorcycle for half an hour each way on the freeway.  It started as a hard day already this morning. IContinue reading “Controlled meltdowns”

This evening I watered the garden of my owners’ house again: this is the big responsibility I have here while they’re away this summer.  I’ve never been very good at taking care of plants but I’m really loving tending to their garden. I love the smells that come up and out of the soil, outContinue reading “Watering the garden”

I’ve always liked activities that entail speed and/or danger or risk.  Only recently, though, have I realized how much the fact of being able, or not, to do risky things is a very accurate thermometer of my mental state, even of my mental health.  In June I was still too tired and mentally fatigued toContinue reading “Mental health thermometer”

“You can close your eyes  to what you do not want to see But you cannot close your heart  to what you do not want to feel”