Yesterday evening I had the double bliss of my housemate (who makes me feel so uncomfortable) being out, away for an overnight trip, and one of my best friends here in Colorado coming to visit me. For several years I had the fortune to live with good friends, i.e. to have some of my closestContinue reading “Double bliss — and food for thought”
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“Heart of Gold”
How can one love so much?
How is it that one can love so much? How is it that while still being ill three weeks after first testing positive for COVID, while putting up with a contradictory housemate, while struggling in an uncomfortable living situation, while reading a book on trauma (& thus addressing my own traumas), while facing frustration andContinue reading “How can one love so much?”
Humans, the “social animals”
[…] In a statement released in June 2011, the British Psychological Society complained to the American Psychological Association that the sources of psychological suffering in the DSM-V were identified “as located within individuals” and overlooked the “undeniable social causation of many such problems”. […] ‘ ‘ Mental illness is not at all like cancer: HumansContinue reading “Humans, the “social animals””
Tugs-of-war
Two more quotes from the book “The body keeps the score” by Bessel a. van der Kolk, M.D.: these two snippets in particular, although from different chapters, for me go together somehow and are particularly important as they relate, among other things, to some recent experiences, conflicts, and needs that I have felt and thatContinue reading “Tugs-of-war”
Demons?
[Trigger warning: trauma somatization] ‘ […] Don’t you ever tame your demons But always keep ’em on a leash ‘ {from the song “Arsonist Lullabye” by Hozier} Lately, my demons have been getting totally unleashed at night. To the point of waking me up in the wee hours every morning, usually around four, and keepingContinue reading “Demons?”
“Auden’s Rule”
‘ Truth, like love and sleep, resents Approaches that are too intense. ‘ [Poet W. H. Auden, “The Double Man”]
Thanksgiving
Thank you, Universe, that I’m feeling better than a week ago and that I don’t have to spend my first Thanksgiving here in Colorado all alone. Thanks that there are actually people — friends — who’ll welcome me into their homes here, as there were in California and have been so many other times, inContinue reading “Thanksgiving”
‘Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves… Live the questions now. Perhaps you will gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.’ [from “Letters to a Young Poet” by Rainer Maria Rilke]
“Losing Your Body, Losing Your Self”
[Trigger warning: somatization of trauma] From Chapter 6 of the book “The body keeps the score” by Bessel a. van der Kolk, M.D.: ‘ […] Over the yers our research team has repeatedly found that chronic emotional abuse and neglect can be just as devastating as physical abuse and sexual molestation. […] Not being seen, notContinue reading ““Losing Your Body, Losing Your Self”“
The Little Prince and the Fox 