Category Archives: Uncategorized

Despite the stress of the move, I had a good weekend. And it was good because I spent most of it in pleasant company.  On Saturday, I attended the second part of a trad climbing clinic, hands-on and outdoors in beautiful weather, in the fun company of some students from the research group where IContinue reading

It’s not a question of “taming my energy” or “regulating my intense emotions”. It’s a question of finding ways to express those emotions and of channeling that energy, which includes finding other persons who match my energy and avoiding, or reducing interaction with, people who drain it.  Many aspects of my feelings, behaviors, experiences orContinue reading “Resonating energies”

Yesterday I saw two quotes I really liked: they both resonated very much with me and felt somehow related to each other.  One was anonymous and read “Life isn’t about finding ourselves  Life is about creating ourselves”. The other was a Chinese proverb:  “Don’t let yesterday take up too much of today”. For months nowContinue reading “Creating ourselves”

Today I finally got around to the bank to pay my October rent, five days late. This is not my style.  I’m just so overwhelmed, so tired, at the very end of my rope.  I’m not getting my needs met.  I’m tired of having to drive miles to meet up with friends in person and,Continue reading “At the end of my rope”

“I really like working with you”, the grad student whom I’m mentoring said to me today.  For me, this simple sentence was a great relief, like a warm and bright shaft of light after some dark shadows in the past few days.  I guess one of the big questions I need to answer for myselfContinue reading “In and out of the shadows”

A film I really enjoyed last night: “God’s own country” by Francis Lee, starring Josh O’Connor & Alec Secareanu.

I need to start dating — purposefully dating. ASAP. I’ve always been a spontaneously erotic person, someone who naturally feels, perceives and even expresses eroticism/sensuality/sexuality in a variety of ways, often very intensely and inadvertently.  Now, with HRT, this is getting physiologically to a level of intensity that is almost unmanageable for me, in the senseContinue reading “Hormones…”

“You get what you give” [song by New Radicals] At the end of class, Arys got a spontaneous round of applause from the students.  This was the first time in nine months that Arys had taught a Physics lesson to college students again, and had they been asked to do it even only a monthContinue reading “We get what we give”

I’ve joined a trans choir!  I went to my first rehearsal with them last night and totally loved it! And I realized how truly deep my voice has gotten… if only I allow myself to let it go deep.  My voice has gotten really deep. But I keep defaulting back to a higher pitch. IContinue reading “Turning people gay”

There’s so much pain in me tonight. Intense pain and the brightest awareness that I’ve felt in a while…