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Another thing that I could feel, I could hear in the moment of clear semi-awakeness last night was the words “gay boy, gay boy — but what type of ‘gay boy’?”  These two words keep coming back to me when I think of myself on my own and even when I describe myself to friendsContinue reading “Gay boy/guy: what type?”

[Trigger warning: death of parent, loss grief.]  [Spoiler alert: some details about the book “Heat Wave” by TJ Klune.] Last night I had one of the sweetest moments in a dream ever.  In the past couple of evenings, the parts I’ve been reading in the book “Heat Wave” (the third book in The Extraordinaries trilogyContinue reading “The sweetest dream”

What forms our consciousness? What gives us our sense of “self”?  This question has always fascinated me, as it has thousands of people. Since fully realizing and wholly coming to live my non-binary trans identity, though, this question has acquired a deeper meaning, maybe more complicated and/or simply more personal.  As I stepped out ofContinue reading “I recognize this guy”

[Trigger warning: grief, loss, death of parent.] Sometime between tonight and tomorrow (I’m not exactly sure because of the 8-hour time difference) it’s going to be the one-year anniversary of my father’s death.  I don’t really know how I feel about it.  It seems so distant, almost unreal, belonging to another life. All of lastContinue reading “Different shades of grief — or lack thereof”

[Spoiler alert: details about the stories & characters in TJ Klune’s books “The Extraordinaries” & “Flash Fire”] I’m devouring the book “Flash Fire”, TJ Klune’s sequel to “The Extraordinaries”.  Once again, like with the first book, I cannot put it down because of living vicariously through the story, identifying very strongly — maybe too closelyContinue reading ““Tell me lies, Tell me sweet little lies””

I feel like I’m a mix between a teenage boy trying to figure out his queer-related conundrums and an adult going through an existential mid-life crisis. A combination that I wouldn’t recommend to anyone!  As I’ve mentioned before, I feel like I’m going through puberty all over, a queer teenage boy trying to figure thingsContinue reading “Queer teenage boy trying to figure things out”

My favorite book as a teenager was “Extraterrestre alla pari” by Bianca Pitzorno.  I don’t even know how it turned up in our house… Maybe my parents found it or traded it in at some local library thinking it was a science-fiction book, from the title, and that I would thus enjoy it because ofContinue reading ““Extraterrestre alla pari””

[Trigger warning: some explicit references to body parts (incl. genitals) and body shapes.] I wish I had been “born a boy”.  Today this desire is almost excruciating, full of pain and of anger even (of course, I always feel angry when I’m hurt). Because I actually was born a boy but nobody saw it. BecauseContinue reading “I wish I had been “born a boy””

[Trigger warning for the first paragraph: grief, loss, death of parent.] One year ago it was probably the worst 4th of July of my life: I was devastated by grief as I had just received the news that my father had been hospitalized for the final time and been given less than two weeks toContinue reading “Creating space”

[Trigger warning: grief, loss, death of parent.] [Spoiler alert: some details about the book “The Extraordinaries” by TJ Klune.] Last night I finished reading the young adult fiction book “The Extraordinaries” by TJ Klune.  I devoured it.  I’ve been feeling a little uncomfortable and even judgmental with myself for the way I’ve been not justContinue reading ““The Extraordinaries””