Wanderlust

I just got home from a week’s trip and can’t wait to leave again. 

My autistic burnout is making it really hard to travel at the moment, especially when it involves driving (like this long trip, driving ~400 miles each way across several mountainous areas), but my love of traveling is deep, an essential part of my nature and of my identity (which is one of the reasons I want & need to get over this burnout ASAP).

This trip was really good for me, it brought me in touch with important parts of myself again: my wanderlust is back and that feels wonderful. 

As The Head & the Heart sing: 

“

You caught me staring off the cliff again

And looking down on everyone

Wish my goodbyes could be more innocent

But every part just wants to run

I have this deep, deep feeling in my ribs again

I just keep, keep, keep moving on

Like the deep, deep current on the riverbed

I have to keep, keep, keep moving on

There’s times I need direction

There’s times I need to roam

I move station to station

I showed up here alone

I am my own arrow

I am my own home

It’s all right, it’s all right

It’s all I’ve ever known

It’s all right, it’s all right

It’s all right, it’s all right

It’s all I’ve ever known

It’s all right, it’s all right

So if you’re falling through the cracks again

Maybe the fall was by design

‘Cause someone’s gonna break your heart again

That’s just proof that you’re alive

I have this deep, deep feeling in my ribs again

I just keep, keep, keep moving on

Like the deep, deep current on the riverbed

I have to keep, keep, keep moving on

There’s times I need direction

There’s times I need to roam

I move station to station

I showed up here alone

I am my own arrow

I am my own home

It’s all right, it’s all right

It’s all I’ve ever known

It’s all right, it’s all right

It’s all right, it’s all right

It’s all I’ve ever known

It’s all right, it’s all right

There’s times I need direction

There’s times I need to roam

I move station to station

I showed up here alone

I am my own arrow

I am my own home

I am my own arrow

I am my own home

”

[“Arrow” by The Head & The Heart]