Author Archives: adventurerliberated

I’m having one of those days when all I’d really want to do is curl up in a blanket and relax and be held.  But I cannot do that because I have work to do, deadlines to meet, and no one here to hold me.  I’m having one of those days where sadness and lonelinessContinue reading “Tell me I’ll be fine”

After nearly two weeks of not writing, I’m back, and would have so much to say that I hardly know where to start.  Today, I had to swim 2 miles to be able to get some of my grumpiness (& loneliness) off. I basically drugged myself into a good mood by getting endorphins flowing inContinue reading “Why put up with it?”

I would like at least my upper-body, which is already so masculine, to be completely liberated and to fully reflect the boy that I feel I am.

At the swimming-pool where I go here, there is a gender neutral bathroom (marked as “All Gender”) including a shower and a couple lockers. It’s situated right in between the “Women”’s and “Men”’s changing rooms and it’s decent, although it has no device one can use to dry one’s hair. I’ve always been changing andContinue reading “Trans Day of Visibility”

I feel like I’m being given a second chance.  A second chance to try my luck (or skills) at doing research in academia, of testing and even healing my relationship with science. This time around I’m a very different person. Not only a dozen years older. In many ways, I’m actually younger, or more youthful.Continue reading “Second (or maybe third) chance?”

Two months ago I had just arrived at my new, temporary home, after a four-day road trip, making it here just in time before a snow-storm. At this time two months ago, I was enjoying my first morning here, cozily indoors as the snow fell abundantly all around me, looking forward to the piles ofContinue reading “Two months: from snow-storms to wildfires”

Over the past few days, I’ve heard this question asked more than once, albeit in different ways. It’s Trans Awareness Week and I’ve been participating in the events that are being locally organized (which is a wonderful and totally new experience to me in itself!). Last night I went to one of the first events:Continue reading “Is non-binary just an aesthetic?”

The mountains on the horizon, there in the West, are particularly beautiful this morning: the sky is heavy with grey (rain?) clouds everywhere except for right over the mountains, which are all covered in white from yesterday’s snowfall and now gleaming in the sunshine, in those rays of light that seem to be there justContinue reading “The body I want?”

In the past week or two, as spring hasn’t been just knocking on winter’s door but actually shoving it open, I’ve found myself yearning for a little more winter – not only the astronomical or meteorological winter, but also the emotional “wintering”: a little more quiet, a little more stillness, a little more coziness insideContinue reading “Pause”