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A film I really enjoyed last night: “God’s own country” by Francis Lee, starring Josh O’Connor & Alec Secareanu.

I need to start dating — purposefully dating. ASAP. I’ve always been a spontaneously erotic person, someone who naturally feels, perceives and even expresses eroticism/sensuality/sexuality in a variety of ways, often very intensely and inadvertently.  Now, with HRT, this is getting physiologically to a level of intensity that is almost unmanageable for me, in the senseContinue reading “Hormones…”

“You get what you give” [song by New Radicals] At the end of class, Arys got a spontaneous round of applause from the students.  This was the first time in nine months that Arys had taught a Physics lesson to college students again, and had they been asked to do it even only a monthContinue reading “We get what we give”

I’ve joined a trans choir!  I went to my first rehearsal with them last night and totally loved it! And I realized how truly deep my voice has gotten… if only I allow myself to let it go deep.  My voice has gotten really deep. But I keep defaulting back to a higher pitch. IContinue reading “Turning people gay”

There’s so much pain in me tonight. Intense pain and the brightest awareness that I’ve felt in a while… 

Yesterday, I had a lovely video chat with one of my best friends from grad school and, among other things, in our conversation they quoted a very powerful and enlightening sentence from the book Wintering by Katherine May: “My needs are reasonable”.  Encouraged by this and another close friend, I read the book Wintering duringContinue reading “Making space for my needs because they are reasonable”

Yesterday evening I went climbing outdoors with a couple of guys with whom I climb regularly once a week here (on weekdays): two of them were my regular climbing partners, and also friends at this point; the third was someone new to me but a buddy (& colleague) of theirs.  When I introduced myself toContinue reading “What a great response!”

[Content warnings: social anxiety; COVID/pandemic; (mis)gendering & gender dysphoria] “Courage is different for each of us”. So is fear.  My two best climbing buddies here in Colorado are both wild, somewhat reckless, adventurers (which is probably the reason we “clicked” and get along). They’re both very good climbers, one of them in particular having startedContinue reading “Fear, as well as courage, are both different for each of us”

I’m writing this post mainly as a reminder to myself of how wonderfully healing it is for me to be out in Nature — a true panacea.  The past couple weeks have been a quite stressful and somewhat overwhelming. I’ve found a counselor that feels like a great fit for now and I’ve been doingContinue reading “Panacea”

[Trigger warning: menstrual period; PMS] Today was rough. The “battle of the giants” raging in my body as female and male hormones fought for supremacy, probably intensified by PMS (according to my calendar…) and some poor sleep.  However, a small thing this evening made my day, turning it upside-down for the better.  I went toContinue reading “Small things can make a big difference”