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“Let everything happen to you:  beauty and terror.  Just keep going.  No feeling lasts forever.” [Rainer Maria Rilke] I experience emotions very intensely and often in a roller-coaster pattern. And often I can still get overwhelmed by them. But I have learned to be with them in the moment, to just be in the moment. Continue reading “The joy of the moment”

I am happy. And extremely relieved. My pet snake made it alive from California and is now with me here in Colorado: the last (but not least!!!) piece of my “Californian life” is now with me here, in my “new home”.  Of course, this has a huge symbolical meaning, at least for someone like meContinue reading “Today’s joy!”

The other event that has made today an intense day was an extremely vivid dream I had a couple nights ago but didn’t have time to process and share (with my counselor) until today.  I often remember my dreams and sometimes I have dreams that are particularly realistic and vivid, that when I wake upContinue reading “The sweetest dream…?”

It’s been one of those BIG days. An intense day and in some ways a day to celebrate.  Today I cast my first Coloradan vote! Which to me feels like a HUGE step towards making Colorado my new “real home”, at least for the time being.  Since moving to the U.S. from Europe in 2016,Continue reading “First times in Colorado”

Was is Coleridge who compared grief (or guilt?) to a dead albatross hanging around his neck?  In the past couple weeks at my new place I’ve been experiencing renewed asthma symptoms probably triggered by allergens (NOTE: I had never had asthma in my life until after getting sick with COVID in 2020 — I wasContinue reading “Heavy on my chest”

We’re getting the first snow of the season! And I’m going for my second tattoo consultation today! I’m so excited about both! (Funny — it was snowing also when I went for my first tattoo consultation.)  Getting these tattoos, that are actually from my own drawings, is another part of creating myself, and it feelsContinue reading “First snow & second tattoo”

In my therapy session yesterday, I told my counselor that I had finally decided to let go of a situation that belongs to the past — not only “decided” with my head but also, and foremost, “decided” with my heart.  And their response was, “You seem to be so in sync with the season, withContinue reading “(Re)birth — Shedding“

I’ve been in Colorado for nine months, to the day.  Nine months. A (re)birth.  This isn’t the first time I’m feeling reborn. I remember a wonderful, joyful feeling of rebirth six years ago, for my first birthday in California, which was a little more than nine months after my move from Europe to California.  ThisContinue reading “(Re)birth — Official approval of legal name change“

The more I think about it, the more I feel into it, the more I just live, and the more I agree and resonate with that anonymous quote “Life isn’t about finding ourselves  Life is about creating ourselves”. I really do believe, I really do feel, that life is about creating ourselves. And today IContinue reading “Another step towards creating myself!”

As I try, for the hundredth time, to set some clear boundaries that I truly need with a person with whom there is a complicated relationship on multiple tricky levels, “Life, to me, is not that simple” is the response I get from this straight, monogamous, heteronormative, white cis-man who’s spent his entire life inContinue reading ““Life, to me, is not that simple””