For the past couple weeks, I’ve been struggling with bouts of extreme fatigue and loneliness, and the past week it’s gotten worse.
They seem to go hand in hand, these two feelings. Although one is physical (the extreme fatigue, including dizziness, sometimes even when I’m sitting or lying) and one is emotional (the loneliness), they seem to at least partly feed off of each other, i.e. I feel more lonely when I’m exhausted (& physically inactive) and more exhausted when I’m alone.
It’s also very scary to be, or feel, unwell when one’s alone: the fear of getting to a point where I’m so unwell (& alone) that I have to call 911 and be taken to the ED by strangers is always at the back of my mind when I start feeling as unwell as I have been in the past few days, so exhausted and dizzy that I couldn’t drive myself to a doctor or hospital if I needed care.
Being single and alone when well can be a mix of liberating and scary or difficult. But being single and alone when unwell is just plain scary and difficult.
The Little Prince and the Fox 