I can hardly believe it yet, but I made it! I passed the audition and am now officially a baritone in a big “gay men’s” chorus!
My heart is a jumble of emotions at the moment, the main one still being disbelief.
Definitely there’s a lot of excitement but even some fear.
What if I cannot keep up with the other singers? What if the group or atmosphere is disappointing and not all I’m hoping for?
But this piece of news coming today, after the harmful incident in the “masculinity group” last night with the blanket statement about transmasculine people all being “ex-lesbians”, feels even more like a wonderful breath of fresh air for me. For the gay boy in me.
I will be able to be surrounded by other gay boys or gay men, including lots of cis-men. And of course it’s not going to be all perfect or all easy, but maybe it will help counterbalance the sense of stigma I often get in many queer communities (that are not gay circles), where it seems that liking or enjoying the company of cis-men is, at best, a “weird” thing and often a “sin” or something one has to justify.
The Little Prince and the Fox 