Someone to go home to

Most of the people I know have someone to go home to: a spouse, partner(s), housemate(s), child(ren). 

I don’t. 

That weighs on me. 

As much as I enjoy and even need a lot of time & space by myself, as difficult as it can be for me to compromise with other people’s schedules and/or needs on a daily basis, I would like to live with, or at least share more time with, someone compatible and close to me. 

I like to make space for (a) close friend(s) visiting me. I enjoy cooking and eating together. It feels comfortable and cosy to relax watching a movie with a friend at the end of the day — I’d rather cook and eat and watch a movie with a compatible friend/housemate instead of always do it by myself. 

I’ve learned to do things by myself, to “turn loneliness into solitude”, to “focus on my own goals to keep myself going”, but it’s not easy. It’s a big, almost continuous, effort — and sometimes it’s really sad and painful.