I’m still feeling very emotional today and still wanting to cry. These tears, like last night’s tears, are not from regret or sadness. There’s no regret in my words or feelings when I say, “There’s no going back for me”.
These tears and my feeling so emotional come from the intensity, from the breadth & depth & mix, of the emotions I am experiencing: it’s so much, it’s almost too much to hold. It’s mainly tears of gratitude and joy and almost disbelief for what this anniversary represents to me. And also tears of compassion towards myself.
And there’s awe, too. A sense of awe towards something that feels bigger than me and/or beyond myself. As if life, or the universe, were unfolding through me and somehow beyond me.
This is MY BIG DAY, MY BIG ANNIVERSARY. Something HUGE for me, something of paramount importance. But I also feel so small and delicate today. I feel the need to be super gentle with myself today, to show & give myself as much love & compassion as I can, to let myself be loved and held.
The Little Prince and the Fox 