Is Spring here already?
Something has shifted for me, something major. Something happened ten days ago, initiating a change, an opening up, a “turning of the page”, a looking ahead & moving forward for me that I hadn’t felt in months.
I feel that all of a sudden I’m able to really experience joy, to feel profoundly and intensely happy and alive again.
It feels as if the door to joy has opened for me again. And it’s not only joy: it’s also an intense liveliness, a wish or drive to be alive again, to get out, to put myself out there, to explore the world and relationships. Which I am doing and it feels wonderful (& joyful) but also scary.
The desire and yearning and craving for closeness, connection, and intimacy are alive and strong in me again, but the fear, almost an instinctive reaction against closeness, connection, and intimacy is still there, and both the joy/craving and the fear are getting activated at the same time.
Even my dreams are telling me clearly that I’ve “come alive” again with all the power of animal energy.
What do I do with all this life energy coursing through & pouring out of me?
The Little Prince and the Fox 