For a while now, when I think of myself as an animal other than human, I’ve been feeling like a Big Cat, specifically, a combination of a lion (male, the one with the mane), a mountain lion or cougar (maybe female), and a cheetah.
Yesterday, I discovered that I am a peacock — also a peacock, or potentially a peacock, or a peacock instead.
Before my second KAPT session yesterday morning, I went for a walk in the clinic’s neighborhood, connecting with myself and my surroundings, with Nature, with Everything really, in that gorgeous spring weather. I was feeling wonderfully connected with nature so when I got back to the clinic and my guide asked me whether I’d like to draw a tarot card, I decided to do so from “The wild unknown Animal Spirit guidebook” by Kim Krans. First, I asked the question, “What is it that I need to know about myself in this moment?” and then I drew an animal card. And there it was: the Peacock.
Honestly, I couldn’t make sense of it at first but I was open; so then these words from Kim Krans’s book brought me a sense of healing & belonging with another part of myself — maybe still only “in fieri”, a potentiality, but somehow the truest:
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PEACOCK
INNER-BEAUTY, COMPASSION, ASSIMILATOR OF ANYTHING
The beauty of the Peacock is unrivaled. It’s easy to think it comes from the plumage… but the secret of the Peacock is that the beauty resides within and extends outward indefinitely.
This adept creature can assimilate or ‘digest’ all experiences in life, so it does not harbor resentment, conflict, or past pain within its psyche. The Peacock type is extremely rare — not many of us have reached this advanced level of acceptance of the self and others.
When in balance: confident, kind
When out of balance: cannot ‘digest’ situations
To bring into balance: meditation on navel
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[from “The wild unknown Animal Spirit guidebook” by Kim Krans]
The Little Prince and the Fox 