Another step towards creating myself!

The more I think about it, the more I feel into it, the more I just live, and the more I agree and resonate with that anonymous quote

“Life isn’t about finding ourselves 

Life is about creating ourselves”.

I really do believe, I really do feel, that life is about creating ourselves. And today I had another opportunity to do so, to take another step towards creating myself: this afternoon I submitted the petition to legally change my name!!!! 

Today I felt it so intensely, this act of creating myself: intermittent and sometimes difficult, often strewn with obstacles, and yet ongoing for decades. I’ve been creating this scientist, this non-conforming rebel, this athlete. And now more than ever I see it happening, unraveling before me, also thanks to the visible changes due to the various processes involved in embracing my non-binary gender identity, as I gradually see and feel the effects of HRT, of the planned top-surgery, of getting my legal name & gender-marker changed. As well as my decisions to get tattoos for the first time in decades, for delving into rock climbing ever more intensely, for fitting more comfortably into my professional role as a researcher & mentor, for coming into myself wholly and out to the world openly. 

It feels good and wonderfully empowering — and I’m extremely grateful to have the opportunity to do all this (maybe in the nick of time)…!