Hormones…

I need to start dating — purposefully dating. ASAP.

I’ve always been a spontaneously erotic person, someone who naturally feels, perceives and even expresses eroticism/sensuality/sexuality in a variety of ways, often very intensely and inadvertently. 

Now, with HRT, this is getting physiologically to a level of intensity that is almost unmanageable for me, in the sense that I risk getting “vicarious crushes” (mutual or unilateral) on persons with whom I really want to maintain a platonic relationship. So I effectively need to “divert” my sexual energy to directions that are more appropriate, that don’t risk mixing levels or crossing boundaries which it’s safer and healthier to not mix or cross. 

It’s hard because hormones can really go to our heads and mess with our brains… 

But I’ve learned the lesson, sometimes the hard way, and I don’t want to waste it: let it serve me now!