Feelings from this morning:
- R.E.M. song “The Ascent of Man” (from the album “Around the Sun”) ringing in my head and the verses “I looked for you, it’s my last grand stand” particularly resonating with me;
- Identifying so strongly and happily as a boy, and feeling so wholly myself as a boy – one of my best friends here in California, whom I hadn’t seen in six months, yesterday said to me, “You look so strong”, and I instinctively replied, “Well, I’m turning into a boy” and then, after a moment’s thought, “I’m actually really turning into a boy”! Starting to share my non-binary/trans gender identity and the medical procedures that I have already started (HRT) and plan on doing (masculinizing top-surgery) with more and more trusted people, and talking about it more openly, is helping me to feel more deeply and wholly my boyish part and to express my non-binary/trans-masculine gender identity with more confidence. Which feels good because it’s more authentically me.
The Little Prince and the Fox 