On the other hand, though, having those two meetings that might turn out to be painful or awkward is up to me, it’s my own choice (as long as the other persons involved confirm the availability they have given me for now). If I feel that I’m not ready to, or not interested in, having either one of those meetings, or if I don’t have the time or the emotional bandwidth for them, I don’t need to have them. I am free not to have them. At the end of the day, I am free.
I am free. This is one of the main goals that I have been striving for my whole life. Freedom does not come for free, freedom has a cost. But I am free to choose if and when to have those meetings/interactions. As long as they can bring me peace and/or closure, beyond the pain or awkwardness, I’ll have them. Otherwise, if they’re just more salt on a wound, I will not. And I don’t have to make this decision now. I have at least one more week before having to make this decision (and half of it is anyway out of my control, in the other people’s hands)!
The Little Prince and the Fox 