Recently, Arys has been struggling with an intensified bout of depression, with the mornings becoming increasingly hard. While they used to be an “early bird”, waking up early with no effort and actually full of energy and joy, now they struggle to drag themselves out of bed by 10am feeling tired, depleted of energy, overwhelmed by the day to come and/or lacking motivation.
So it’s important to write down and remember and celebrate this one positive feeling, this morning, when they saw the reflection of their upper body in the short bathroom mirror: they saw “the boy” — really a boy’s torso. The strong and lean shoulders and arms, the slender, straight torso with no hips… if it weren’t for those small breasts, it would be a young, athletic boy’s body (probably just too slender to be a grown man’s).
This image brought Arys so much joy that it made their day (at least for the moment), which is really important in this difficult, shaky phase.